Sunday, November 15, 2009
2:27 AM
3 more weeks, 6 more papers to 8 months of freedom.
Press on, Anges!
Monday, October 12, 2009
10:52 PM
Been keeping this to myself for a damn long time. Feel like venting this out somewhere, hoping someone or some people would stumble across it and actually think and care about how I feel.
It's just so unfair how H can bring T along wherever we go and they don't even bother to call D along. A has nothing against T or anything but the sight just makes A think about D and how A is unable to have the best of both worlds. A, on A's part, have to travel to and fro like an idiot, wasting precious time, just so that the tension between X and D doesn't worsen any further than how it is now. And when X met A and D just now, X didn't even have the slightest intention of inviting D along. And when G couldn't come cos of E, they just merely mentioned that we actually don't know E very well cos we don't talk much to E, just ask G to bring E along the next time. And this conversation was thrown in A's face where A kept quite the whole while cos obviously A's mind was somewhere else, and A doesn't even think anyone noticed.
And obviously A would want to go to - with D. We're finding a table of 10 when we've only got 8. Then T is very automatically included in the table. Fine. So we've got 9. And only because we needed 1 more then they asked D. And that was only after they asked a few other people. In the end D rejected cos D didn't want it to be awkward for anyone, especially during -. They didn't even care about what A wanted, just brushed it off and continued to ask other people. In the end they settled for N who isn't currently on good terms with H to sit with us. A is more than happy for N to be sitting with us because N is A's friend. But they rather not include D even if including N would make H unhappy and T feel awkward.
So now we're all on friendly terms with T, it takes effort, right? Why can't the same amount of effort be put into being friendly with D too? X always says A spends too much time with D but A can't possibly split into two. Compared to H, who doesnt even need to split cos T is beside H all the time so naturally X doesn't blame H. X should know what A is like. A treats X as one of the bestest friends A has ever had. But X had been spiteful towards A, so A changes. And A does sacrifice, even if it seems insignificant to X. May X does this genuinely because X cares about the friendship with A. But how about the rest. Maybe, they simply just don't care about A's feelings. And they claim to be A's friends.
I'm done venting my grievances; if people actually regard this as a grievance at all. Hope no one gets offended. Names used are false identites to protect whatever rights they got over their names. Peace out.
Monday, September 14, 2009
11:23 PM
And when the music fades away
I know I'll be okay
Contagious rhythm in my brain
Let it play
Upset.
No one ever really cares about how other people feel, and do whatever they like according to their own will. That's the way it is.
Maybe I'm just sick of having to disappoint, time and again. I don't want to sacrifice anyone. Circumstances forced me to and that is why we drifted. Face the facts. I can't balance everything, everyone and expect all to be fine. Nothing is fine. In reality, nothing would be fine because nothing is negligible.
Maybe I'm just generally in a bad mood. Two Us and one S for my three H2s. Says alot. Buck up Anges, it's now or never.
Saturday, August 01, 2009
2:36 AM
Today, my friends and I ran out from school to study for a test and to avoid getting into trouble with this teacher. As we walked back in the afternoon to take the test, we were very cautious as not to walk by the place she always frequents. To our horror, that teacher drove out and stopped right in front of the gate, staring at us. FML.
Sunday, June 14, 2009
2:47 AM
Hey Double-face you made us crumble.
I don't know why and I don't know how, but I won't let it stay this way.
Sunday, May 24, 2009
11:39 PM
I know sometimes its gonna rain,
But baby can we make up now cause I can't sleep through the pain
Distance. Distancing. Distanced. Distant.
How far can it get?
Even though everything else in my life seems to suck at the moment. I'm glad I have you.
Sunday, May 17, 2009
11:45 PM
The miles just keep rolling
As the people leave their way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated
But I hope that it gets better as we go
Sometimes we just wish we could throw away all that's at the back of our minds and run off to some faraway land to build sandcastles in the air, decipher shapes out of weird looking clouds and have the time of our lives.
Face it. It would never happen in reality. Problems keep surfacing, even when you're at your peak. You stumble, slip and then fall. Even though we climb back up again, what's become of us? We stand, yes we do, but we're wounded, and scarred.
So, what exactly is the best of both worlds? Is there even such a thing?
I guess not. Time and time again I've been proven wrong. Sacrifices have to be made. I tell myself "next time", "another day", but there will always be a next time, and for some cases there might not.
I feel so distant. Each and every time I view the photos and hear about how happy everyone was, playing, celebrating, simply having fun. All I can do is laugh along and try to imagine what happened.
And how I wish I was there.
Someday I'll just be another somebody. Someday.
