Friday, March 24, 2006
7:07 PM
na shi de ta, hai bu dong wei shen me
ying huo chong dou bu dong.
sometimes i just dont knw what to say, what to do.
im trying to be at my best.
but whatever i do never seems to be right.
i really need someone to tell me at this time, what to do, how to react.
i really dont want to be yet another hypocritical character, playing a fake role in front of everybody.
i dont like to do things against my will.
but what can make me feel more sense of belonging?
am i that insignificant?
you all could actually go on without me that day, it wouldnt have made a difference, would it?
i feel that you all actually treat me like junk, or rather, as if i was transparent and i wasnt even there.
maybe im just too sensitive, but im seriously hurt.
hurt many many times, again and again.
its just that i dont show it, but it doesnt mean i dont care.
or maybe im simply too childish, i should just be concentrating on my studies instead.
yeah so go on without me, it wouldnt even make a difference.
bi shang yan rang lei shui hua luo
ci ke ni yi zhen de yong yuan li kai wo \
ive finally finished my homework!
but then i think its quite sloppily done.
i hope elit isnt graded :/
at least i didnt waste my time surfing tvb, haha!
means i kept to my promise!
hais, my toe, my toe, my irritating toe.
its super swollen, then cant even walk properly.
if only i didnt go and cut my toenails!
anw, the results of campus coming out soon.
i hope teresa gets in..
not that im a die-hard fan of hers, but then i just like to hear her sing la.
then again, if she gets out i dont think i will get very sad. haha!
im not doing PE tmr! then i can take the time to go and do my joy luck analysis.
so heng, but who ask me nv bring my book back :/
nvm, i think got chuwen to pei wo tmr.
at least i wont sit there and slack for 45 mins.
OKAY, ciao. im gna watch campus results!
shui jin qiu ni kuai kuai xian sheng
fa chu guang mang ni de cinderella -
okay, so ive gotten my new phone.
so now can contact me on my phone le!
anw, im super high!
bryan won! whee!
actually leo wasnt that bad either..
so he deserves to be in top two la.
im so glad for bryan :D
hmm okay.. one more day and school will reopen :/
lets see, ive got:
joy luck analysis
unseen prose
chinese si hanchinese book review
study for amaths!
so, you can see how pathetic i am now.
actually the letter is halfway written, so its not bad la (:
but i havent studied for amaths.
and the worse thing is that i left my joy luck in school.
oh great, im so dead.
im gonna get into trouble, again.
supposed to go out with the bunch of monkeys for sakae tmr..
but then, my dearest mother doesnt allow!
so what to do?
stay at home and do hwk lor..
well, she claims that ive been spending too much money this week, esp on the phone.
like wth? my phone spoilt then have to change is my prob meh..
but not like i have a choice.
the other time she also didnt let me go for the christmas gathering, though i went in the end la.
but i was two hours late.
then they alr almost finished my share of the mushroom soup!
i knw who's the one who is so greedy!
MUST be wendy!
afterall, i can stay at home and finish up my homework.
so its not too bad la.
just that i wont get to enjoy sakae :(
i just hope i dont slack again tmr.
ive been surfing tvb so much for the past three days, cos im super addicted to this song.
but i shall have zhi zhi li! and try and resist the temptation and not slack nor surf tvb tmr.
yep, its like 1.15 now.
and everybody is like asleep le.
tsk, shall blog again tmr if i have the time.
BRYAN RULES (;
sometimes you just wonder,
how you could actually be so ignorant.
why cant people be more true?
qing ni bie zuo pan duo la,
qi ta dou ke yi.
my phone is officially dead.
so dont contact me on my handphone la.
ciao (:why is it when im always in my highest state, you have to bring me down?
nvm, i guess i have to be contented with what i have.
which is actually nothing, but memories.