Saturday, August 30, 2008
10:59 PM
I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish,
Take a chance, make a change
& breakaway
Omg omg Nationals tmrw! If I said I'm not scared I would be lying. Scared goggles come off or water enters the goggles when I plunge, scared I plunge before my teammate touches or when the horn hasn't sounded. No no no none of this is gonna happen. Em says we've got a high chance to get a medal for 4x50m obs. Really hope so :D
Only studied for 4 hours today but nvm at least I covered 2 topics of math. The St Nicks way (; Don't blame me if I start taking out my notes to study tmrw, only 2 more weeks to promos :/ But I think I won't be able to study much anyway, with Huabin's psp and Ariel Kwa the bestfriend, better known as "The Noisy" around.
Okay folks, wish me luck. Anges gotta scram now (:
Feel the melody and the rhythm of the music around you, around you.
Alright! Teachers' day today was aweeesome! I remember last year we didn't even celebrate due to that major power failure in school then everyone was circulating the msg at ard 10pm not to go to school the next day.. Who could ever forget that? (:
Celebrations at JJ were superfab! They treated it as sucha big big big event and everyone was all so happy :D New teachers' performances were damn funny, especially seeing ... hahahaha nvm (: Yuen lao ban was super funny, as usual (: Food looked great, but didn't manage to try most of it. Anyway, I'm glad that most of S21 came down!
Yeah and we gave Bryan a Newton's cradle and this "I Love You" helium balloon that Waitsz insisted on tying around his wrist. Then we moved to the canteen to cut the cake and Bryan was damn wary of people throwing the cream at him.. lol! Luckily I nv kena (:
Waited for Janice for awhile and finally we headed to St Nicks! Laopa was on the same train and we met at YCK so just asked her to hop along onto my mom's car (: Rushed to Fam lounge and celebrated Xiaode's birthday (: Her class was super funny, do 4C cheer in middle of the canteen.
And and orange bowl was open today!!! But by the time I wanted to go buy then it was sold out already ): Ay should have went to queue up first :/ Nvm, next time luh. Hmm camwhored like mad with Faithians, with teachers and huahui friends! Can hear all the familiar screaming you have in a girl's school plus see all the hugging.. And then the time just passed so quickly we kept hearing the half-an-hour bell go, yes all the different types of hymns omg I miss all of that!
Yeah and when most of the people left, Sista, Huiting and I went to the library and the three of us fell asleep on the sofas until they had to close! It's like we're back at home again (: Well afterall, I've been there for ten years of my life. Sigh why must they undergo prime, everything will change!
Walked ard AMK Hub after that with the two of them, had ALOT of fun I swear. Some things just can't be described with words (: Mid-Autumn Fest date don't forget! :D
Anges is a happy girl today so no hidden emo lines don't bother highlighting the text (:
Heh you cheated!
I've caught 45 aeroplanes!
Best I've ever had <3
(7/8 of us but nvm Maple we left a space for you!)
All this time goes by
Still no reason why
A little bit longer and I'll be fine
School's been good, besides the mugging part. My other two counterparts and the Si Da Tian Wang are such joys to be around and in fact they've served as my motivation to go to school. Can't imagine life without Jinghui and the funniest comments she can ever make, Fengru with her most influential laughter, laughing at Anli and at how the other three sabo him all the time.
Supposed to be mugging now too but have been making use of this rusty brain of mine since 10.30am to 7pm today without any break then continued to mug from 7 plus to 9 plus. And I'm damn proud to say that didn't sleep at all today despite being REALLY tired from the previous night of mugging as well. Not bad right, major improvement k! Also owe it to Jason, Jinghui and especially Anli for triggering my laughter for the day.
Oh and after the Econs tutorial today Miss Audrey Lim suddenly asked me if I knew TJian. Of course know la, wear mask also can recognise that old uncle okay. He was her senior in RJC like omg no wonder she's so good at econs. And I really have to mention, people don't look their age nowadays (internal joke LOL)!
Put studying for Promos aside, people PLEASE I beg all of you, DO NOT mention PW in my face. The next person who does so, owes me a meal at Botak Jones. I am not kidding.
I know I want have to do this.
& a little bit longer and I'll be fine [:
All I want to do is make sure you stop chasing rainbows
Have been restricting myself from coming online these days. Need to get down to mugging for promos. I can do this, I know I can. Then why do I keep letting myself down, time and time again?
Competition's in one week's time and I'm not doing anything about it. Same goes for promos. Where has the motivation gone?
I want to run away.
Run away from this stupid, realistic world.
Give me a break.
But I'm done
I just can't do this anymore
Had a not so good yet quite a good day today. First I went out of the house late and I thought I would be late for school. Who knew Amanda was late too, so I've got company. Plus I met Yang and we chatted all the way until Amanda and I alighted at bb.
Okay luckily I wasn't late cos I heard that the principal made the 44 latecomers sign some college transfer form. Like ridiculous la. Imagine if I was late today, and all along I was on time, don't tell me I gotta transfer school just because I was late this once? Haha make my two jiemeis so paranoid abt it the whole day.
Yeah and I thought morning would be the end of my worries. During chem makeup tutorial I suddenly had this damn bad stomachache, due to food poisoning. Lasted for damn long then I kept running to the toilet. Plus I was cold and couldn't even walk properly and my cute friends almost resorted to piggyback-ing me lol. Phoned for Dad to come cos I obviously couldn't go home by myself. Made me miss being in a school so much closer to home. Many thanks to the family and the friends who accompanied me :D
On another note, glad that Phelps accomplished what he wanted. Managed to "escape" from beach training with Jasmine for that few mins to run to the koufu nearby to watch that race. Got chased out twice cos we were dripping wet so we resorted to standing outside. The people inside must have thought we were mad! Grant Hackett didn't win his gold for 1500m free, but luckily for him the Tunisia guy didn't smash his WR/OR.
Yeps going off (:
Alright don't lose it now.
Zen me ai?
I've hit the highway,
& I'm not coming home I'm gonna drive
7 down, 1 more to go for Phelps! I swear I was screaming when I thought he would lose the gold when I caught the race live this morning (or rather, yesterday morning). Ian Crocker Milorad Cavic was 0.01 seconds slower than him and that's like the closest difference in timing within the range. Super scary la. Now he's left with the medley relay. Go go go!
And and, I love Rebecca Adlington truck loads! Beat Katie Hoff for 200m freestyle (if I didn't remember wrongly) and beat the 800m free WR that stood for 20 years. PLUS did I forget to mention that she is super pretty? :D
Last beach training tmrw so die also must go I guess? Well nationals coming but then I think instead of being more motivated to train after NUS invitationals many people have lost the drive? Can't do anything much but at least change my own attitude ba. I'm proud to say I dilligently completed pt for today, without cheating :P
Busy busy busy. But nvm can keep my mind off other things. Promos coming soon need to mug! RAH plus there's stupid + annoying PW that I really don't know how to deal with. Okay done ranting :[ Off to bed!
& life goes on.
It can go on without me.
But you put on quite a show
Really had me goin'
But now it's time to go,
Curtain's finally closin'
Today was the first time I broke down in training because I really didn't know how to go on. Yeah, mentally weak. I'm sure Mr Kwa and Emily can see that, and knew it all along. Well but after crying it out the last set felt like a breeze lol. C'mon before my events during Nats please make me cry!
But honestly, I realised it applies to every aspect of my life, including studies. Giving up on things so easily, that's not me. It didn't use to be me. Where has the motivation gone? I really, don't know. All I know is that I want it back and I need to do this by myself.
Failed Physics and Econs, both by 1 mark. I well deserved it, for not keeping my word.
Not looking forward to school but I'll force myself to go anyhow. Can't afford to miss anymore lessons, no matter how draining every single day feels, and no matter how much I wanna catch Phelps in action. Missed his two races today but anyhow congrats to him. Really hoping he'll get his 8 gold medals. 3 more to go (:
& if this emotional torment persists, I'll die.
That was quite a show
Very entertainin'
But it's over now
Go on and take a bow
Underneath this smile
My world is slowly caving in
All the while I'm hanging on
Cause that is all I know
Whoa I haven't blogged in a week. Super busy, either reach home late or nv even come home these few days. First time I knocked out before midnight for so many days. Anyway, long post ahead.
Let's see, Dad's birthday was on Wednesday. Had a feast, right after training. So sad huh only get to celebrate it so late at night. He bought Thai curry crabs from this famous seafood restaurant in ECP. Like omg damn nice! And we finally got to sit down as a family to have dinner, it's been a long time.
Thursday was the leader's camp thing, they practically transformed the whole LN into a disco. Honestly speaking I didn't really enjoy that kind of atmosphere. It's just so not me. Friday was our investiture, plus national day celebration.
The fun part was what came after that. Lunched at Subway with Shawn, Yixuan, Jacky and Yuyong, when Shawn and Yixuan happily ps-ed us cos they wanted to go home. So left Jacky and I to go to Shenn's house to sing K.
Omg her house is like a condo showflat, just that it's much, much bigger. Before we realised it was her house Jacky commented:"Whoa you see this house so nice, like aquarium!" LOL. Her K system and the room itself was much better than Kbox itself lah! Then Chris came, together with 2 of Jacky's classmates. Yep after a few hours of singing I left for ECP for work.
The whole Saturday was spent at ECP too. Laopa and I yue hao to wear red and white alternately. Happened to rain at around 6 and we went into the HK cafe to hide, plus watch abit of the NDP and do abit of work.
Later at night I went to the picking toy machine and got a damn cute Elmo on my 3rd try. After I accidently knocked my head real hard at the stall. I think the Elmo was my reward :D Laopa and I wasted around $8 trying to get the Cookie Monster after that. Nvm shall try again next week! It's been awhile since we had fun like that! We gonna have a change-bag day also lol!
Yep and the people from Macau are back! :D Zhong Yangzhi better treat me to a drink for asking me to help him copy notes for Maths and Chem.
Right, how can I not mention the Olympic Games! Have been looking forward to it since the end of the last season. Stayed up last night to catch the Basketball match between USA and China. SOMEONE commented that Yao Ming looked like a blockhead. Haha yeah SOMEONE who said I was mean when I said Yao Ming's fall was funny. Look who's the mean one lah!
Only the third day but many many good swims. And most of the record breakers happen to be wearing that Speedo swimsuit. Oh well haha, there was a fantastic swim today by USA for 4x100m Freestyle finals. They broke WR (World Record) for the heats ytd, and they broke WR again tdy, 10m before the green line, according to the commentator. And before that, 15m before the finishing line France was in the lead, but US still managed to catch up I totally went "whoa" when I witnessed that. So another Olympic Gold medal for Phelps. The whole team was like uh, roaring when they won. Damn funny lah the commentator said: "How long can you keep that mouth open?" Hilarious man! Oh and I managed to catch Grant Hackett swim ytd! :D
After this gotta continue on my WR (Written Report). ZZZ someone abolish PW for 2008 please! Back to school tomorrow :/ I don't wantttttttt.
& after all these while I still can't help but to say:
"I swear You were my everything,
You meant the whole world to me"
But I know there's no turning back,
& I'll make this be okay.
& someday, I promise I'll be gone
And someday, I might even sing this song
Maybe the world would be a happier place if there aren't so many questions, and perhaps more answers. More than often, simplicity is the key. Many fail to realise that.
& maybe sometimes, things would work out way better if there weren't choices. Because you know that there's something to back you up if all else goes wrong.
But when you break me into nothing
Don't you know
It's not like I haven't tried over and over again
I'm sick and tired of deceiving myself. No I haven't done it, I haven't succeeded. And I wouldn't try telling myself to let go no more. I'll let time decide, for me.
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