Wednesday, February 25, 2009
10:03 PM
This is the last of illusions
This is the final trace of innocence
If I'm caught in the middle
I know it will be the end of me
School's been sucky after orientation. Although I refuse to admit it. The class is different. We no longer do things together.
This morning a tutor mentioned that if anyone fails the next test he's gonna call up our parents and ask why we're so busy and whether we are working outside. And honestly I knew that he was directing that at me.
And I feel loserish all over again.
Talked to Ong Jie Jun Jacky today. He gave me an analogy of a filter funnel, which I found quite apt. He taught me to "energize" as well, and it's really quite effective.
So many things I don't wish to forsake. So little time.
So, where do I go from here?
These are headstrong, crazy days
When your mind's made up
And the music plays
Headstrong can you feel the beat?
Melt down can you feel the heat?
Had the urge to blog since a long long time ago! Nehmind I shall rush this out and aim to sleep at 12.
1. Orientation Camp: Experiencia de Magique
All in all, I had a wonderful experience with them. They reshuffled all the classes and now they're in Bannister! And their queue is directly behind mine! :D
09S21 :D
2. NTU Sundown Swimathon 2009
We swam from 10pm to 7am! There were 16 teams altogether and WS sent out 3 teams. WS team 1 attained 2nd place! HeilUs got 6/7th place (we forgot) and WS team 3 got 4th place! Well done my dear friends :D And I absolutely love the people who discovered Red Bull (better known as KraTengDaeng) HAHA.
HeilUs (WS team 2): Anges Melissa Xiaoqing Huabin Alvin :D
Sorry Captain! But you really do look abit kiam pa :P
WS team 1: Jialong Pradeep Zhenhao Tjian Xiaoying :D
WS team 3: Enid Huajian Minhui Earl PC :D
[More photos to come!]
I'm glad I didn't give up even though I missed training for more than a month! Felt so accomplished after that :D
Headed home and experienced disrupted sleep till 4pm as I got ready to meet the SCDCians at City Hall.
3. SCDC outing!
I swear I was gonna collapse anytime. When we met up they were in the middle of Truth and Dare. And I got a dare which was to dance to Nobody in the "dare box".
After what seemed like a long wait, we headed to Seoul Garden where JessICA got us seats in no time at all :D
We were happily eating and taking photos and then...
Zhepeng started it all.
And he did this to me!!!!
Then it was Nic's turn.
And then Gadis.
Dom was super not spontaneous. He even made me drip chocolate onto my hair!
We look happy oh yes we do :D
I love these people! :D
Camwhoring in Mango at 10 plus!
Today was spent at Shenn's house pigging out and doing some less strenuous stuff like decorating our pencil boxes. Credit to David for giving me the day-off or else I think I will just die from this running nose and throat full of phlegm. Oh right, Shenn's got a new elegant golden retriever Goldie and now she's saying Bruno is barbaric. Shenn ah Shenn.
[Photos coming up]
Souls in the winds must learn how to bend
Seek out a star, hold on to the end
Orientation 09: Experiencia de Magique is over. And I dare not say it was awesome. In fact I think I did a really lousy job. My heart really sank when all the campers were so desperate to go home.
First things first, it's not like we didn't put in our all. ALL of us were damn tired by the 2nd day already. Well a few here and there were not. And I'm getting to that part. This time the intake of OGLs was really lenient. Quality (as a team) sucked. What happened to the sacking of people if they're not up to standard? So what if we were lacking in quantity? I'm quite surprised that Mr Leow could even include someone in OGL on the very day itself. And I'm disappointed. It's not fair to the others who were passionate about it from the very beginning. And I'm pretty pissed off with the people who backed out last minute without valid reasons and said they regretted not joining when they saw how fun it was. Irresponsible people. (If you think that I'm talking about you here and you're unhappy about it, let me inform you that I honestly don't give a damn cos that's how I really feel.)
What I saw this time was that families pit themselves against other families. We have OGLs who make their families seem so special. What JJ do together, they modify and make it their own as if trying to exclude the rest of the J1s. People jeer at other families in front of the family heads. People have no initiative, people are rude and do not appreciate what you've done for them.
The focus of the camp was already wrong to start with. Who freaking cares whether JJ is having a 3D2N camp while driving on the expressway? It's none of their business. And with that much publicity it wasn't even much of a hoo-ha. How ironic. The four magical creatures have no significance to them, nobody can relate to the PD block banner. There is no meaning in what we have done. There's no meaning in the three words "Experiencia de Magique". I don't feel like I've experienced anything but sheer disappointment. The stories do not link and many things were not emphasized on at all. What happened to having positive attitude? What happened to nurturing the leadership in them?
I felt a big change in Mr Leow's approach. He didn't use to care so much about meeting timings when it comes to the real camp itself. If Song Singing Session dragged, so be it. If night games caused a delay, so be it. Everyone's having fun so let's not spoil the mood. This time it's different. Every 8 minutes chase the campers away from the games station? Are we really that infelxible? My OG only got to play 3 out of 10 games station. How fun.
When I recall Orientation 08: I'mpossible, I remember how I morphed into what I am today from a problematic camper. And I remember why it was this way. JJ was one family. Nobody really cared about points or ranking whatsoever. We still cheered for each other. I felt the spirit, I felt something different. And by the last day, even though everyone was shagged, we still didn't want to leave the place, neither did we want to leave our OGLs. We even organised an OG lunch on the spot and invited them to come after they're done with what they have to do in school.
All in all I think this camp's a failure. Inside out. But the councillors did their best and I really look up to them cos they must have been through alot more than the OGLs. Anyway, this camp has certainly made me bonded to a few groups of people like F3 and the SCDCians. I won't forget what we've been through together.
The other happy things chall be reflected on the next post. Let me thrash out what I feel first. Now it's back to studies for me.
& something's been bugging me for a long time.
I've had a little bit too much
All of the people start to rush
A dizzy twister dance
Can't find my drink or man
Where are my keys, I lost my phone
Alright before anyone accuses me of staying up late to play, I really don't know why I'm not tired at all even after working for 10 hours straight at ECP. Met Charlotte at long last, and she's really nice she helped me with my sports meet invitation cards! Not to mention how I accidently (or purposely) "beautified" the place today with loads of glitter. David wore the tshirt we gave him! Glad he likes it (: I chose it I chose it!
Okay I told myself I was only allowed to be sad until Monday and yep Anges is back! Gonna collect the test tubes to do family gifts, then practice dance and yada yada after school! Left two more working days to prepare zzomg I'm so excited :D
And and the skipper has arrived! Gonna try it next Sunday before work (: I shall be the first to conquer it! :D
Have been so busy that I've not been going down for training ): I'm so sadddddd, I'm getting fatter and fatter by the minute and my speed and stamina which aren't even there in the first place are definitely deserting me ): And the next time I'll be down for training is the 18th of Feb, and another 2 days more there's gonna be Sundown. I wonder how I'll survive swimming overnight after sucha long break in between.
Made a pact with DP that whoever scores better for the next Physics test would win a xiao long bao treat. I feel so motivated all of a sudden! Hahah cheyyyyy no la I like Superposition, really honestly! And I'm gonna exchange bag with Zhepeng tmrw. His bag is so totally gay. I have cute but gay dancing partners. Hmm...
I heard Almost today and I really miss dancing with F1 people! Dance to Almost soon? (:
I'd just treat it as if I've never loved before.
Tell me why you're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you
Was in school for F3 meeting then SCDC meeting until 5 and I was off to Cine for David's birthday celebration on Friday. Didn't get to sing alot due to my inefficient updates with Mandopop. Weiting complains that Sky's the worst singing partner ever. His voice totally overpowers everyone else's. Then Evelyn, Laopa and I were screaming away for Bu Gou Cheng Shou and Darren said he could hear us from the corner outside. It's been a long time since we've got to gather like that..
[Pictures (if we even have the soft copy with us)]
And I made another major revelation today. I feel so cheated. Made me feel like the biggest sucker in existence. So I was just the red rose to substitute the pink rose that was initially yearned for. So all those words were nothing but lies. So convincing. So convincing that I actually fell for it. And then it begins to make sense. Why I was being taken for granted all along. I never should have let my guard down, and I will never let my guard down again.
Doesn't even matter anymore does it. It's over.
Not needed and not wanted anywhere else anyway.
Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements
Even if it leads nowhere or would it be a waste
Even if I knew my place should I leave it there
Admin days are over! Generally the response from the campers were better than I've expected. Didn't really get to spend much time with my OG (cos of SCDC) but I sure am glad they still listen to me (: Danced so many times to Pump it and I swear I'll never dance it wrong again. Same goes for Superstar and Oh my Darling.
Dearest Jinghui accompanied me for lunch at Bentobox at JP after the CCA fair and proceeded to find David's present and make my ATM card. Thanks so much girl! Too bad we didn't take photos! Well, went back to school lugging a big bag of sweet talk.
Today was crazy. Shenn told us all to bring our sec school uniform and asked me to lend her St Nick's. She so looks like a convent girl! Kept switching from JJ to SN then back again to take photos, which includes many unsuccessful jumpshots lol. Yeah we wearing tmrw again :D
[Photos]
Left school at 5 to meet up with the other 6/7 of them for dinner to celebrate Yiling's birthday. Ate NYNY and created a din as usual (with the 2 noisy VJ OGLs and 1 JJ OGL) :P Surprised Yiling with the heart-shaped cotton candy "cake". Was super cute lah!
[Photos]
Went to Esplanade after that and unexpectedly sat down to watch an amazing showcase of a drum performance. Did something damn embarrassing! I shall not reveal it here.. Got people take photo can! Oh well I think I can never run away from embarrassing myself when I'm with them. Left the place and camwhored (yes again) at the gallery along the walkway back to citylink.
[More photos]
Was quite happy cos today we almost had full attendance. -GLARES at Maple Lim!
Alright I shall head to bed. I'm really tired (: Ciao!
Because I can't sleep til you're next to me
No I can't live without you no more
Oh I stay up til you're next to me
Til this house feels like it did before
Updates! CNY! First day was damn awkward cos got the 3 mei nv older cousins. But Wen Yang and Wen Hao were two cute little things :D Went to Emily's and got myself dead drunk after winning 30 over dollars thanks to Ariel Kwa. Had no choice but to stayover at their place. And in the morning I was greeted by that princess and had to entertain both the baby brother and her. They were super super cute!
When we first stepped into Emily's house, this was what we saw :D
She claimed she knew how to play MJ.. In the end I built a well for her.
Err castle opening? I tried my best :P
2nd day was better since I'm closer to my Mom's side relatives. It was an all girls' day with my sis, Sabrina and Valerie (: Annis and I kept laughing at Valerie. She's sucha glutton! :P Also gambled with the aunts. Auntie Jillian was super lucky. Kept getting ban luck and even ban ban. Managed to break even though :) Then it was MJ at Zhenhao's house for awhile and then home sweet home.
Uncle Loy('s shoulder), Valerie, Sabrina, Annis, and Yours truly
Young camwhore
The girls continuing to play snakes and ladders, the winner taking the photo :D
Family (:
The rest of the days were just staying back in school to help paint banner, help chereograph dance and SCDC practice. And we alws return home at unearthly hours of the night. But I guess that's what makes us feel so attached to this group of people. OGLs 09 jiayou!
Friday was a mad rush and Saturday was imba. Was supposed to end at 12 but then had two extra tutorials back to back cos we missed it during the cny break. So I ended at 4 instead. Did Bannister board, went for F3 dance prac for awhile and then headed home to bathe, change to go to Shenn's. Had F1 warriors gathering! Shenn, Jiaxin, Shazni, Jacky, Xianghui, Nicholas and Razak were all here. Camwhored, lao-ed yusheng and gambled, and at the same time we taught Shaz how to play MJ. Too bad Jiaxin and Shazni couldn't stayover.
My two DEAREST :D
& again
Whatcha wanna be now?
F1 Warriors!
Woke up late for OGL meeting and we took our own sweet time. We even went to the market to have breakfast! Stayed in school from 9am until 11.45pm to paint and hang the ultra big banner, and we got scolded in the process -.- Stayed to take photos of our accomplishment!
Experiencia de Magique!
People who stayed and helped till the very end!
Yeah went to work today! Surprise surprise I earned $240 in January just by working thrice, and received an angpow from the company too! Also, we closed the shop early and this lady privately hired me to coach her children and their friends for $50. She also gave me an angpow, damn rich k.
Yep now I'm at Shenn's house! She's snoring away already. Oh well I'm super excited to meet the J1s! Can't wait to meet Jinghui as well :D Yaye alright I'm going to bed!
This feels so wrong.