Paper Towns

Tuesday, March 30, 2010
3:49 AM

Seconds, hours, so many days,
You know what you want but how long can you wait?
Every moment lasts forever,
When you feel you've lost your way

My media player is on shuffle mode, and it's currently playing No Boundaries - Kris Allen. Relates to me quite some bit I guess. I've been confused over and over again about my life after A levels. The possible routes, the considerations. I've had enough of being indecisive.

Some may say I've wasted my two years in JC. But honestly, I've never regretted any single decision up till now. There may have been complaints and rants from me every now and then but overlooking the imperfections, the past two years of my life have been enriching and fulfilling. I've grown (matured I hope) and gained alot of experience. And I can even say that, I've used these two years to settle down and finalise what I really want.

So all I'm hoping is that, for those who have strongly adviced me to go through the same torture again, please do support my decision. Because, I'm unwilling to put my heart and effort into something I detest so much. Your advice is on the assumption that I will work hard. But if I don't have the confidence that I will commit, I don't see how I'd do well. I don't wanna end up lying to myself again. "If I don't like to eat yam, I cannot force myself to like it. And no matter how many times you give it to me, I still wouldn't like it, even if it's for free." This was the analogy I gave Jacky. Have to thank him loads, cos he reminded me that I'm doing this for myself, not for anyone else. Thanks bro!

Alright, still have to call up and enquire about stuff.. I'll do it tmrw when the office is open. And better to discuss with my parents and ask Dom for his opinion first.

Anyway on a lighter note, work at Forum TRU today with Evelyn Weeeeeee was fun! :D Just that, I feel weird when I don't bring Juggernaut to Toys R Us :/ It's at the shop ZZZ.

The helmets are damn cute but srsly we do look abit weird.

Working at Forum TRU again tmrw with Ken! Ought to sleep soon.

And Harkhui wants to go to Teoheng to sing. I was checking out the locations, so I went to the official website. And, I burst out laughing in the middle of the night when I heard what's on the website. For those who are interested, http://www.teoheng.com/. Don't say I didn't warn you!

Monday, March 29, 2010
2:08 AM

But when you’re close to me, whenever you’re around
You take the pain away, you make it worth the wait
And I pray that I will have you in my life always
And when my hope is gone you make me keep the faith

It's 2:15am in the morning! And I still feel awake cos I slept from 1am to 4pm yesterday. Yep this would be a long post, cos many things happened these few days!

Yep first up was going to AH with Minhui for her eye checkup!

During the checkup

After the checkup @ Anchorpoint's Cotton On Kids

Me and the tutu skirt

Minhui and her leopard "preens" top

Lunching at Ikea!

Ikea Meatballs (Y) and Kids' Spaghetti

Their featured meal of the day: Curry Chicken Rice

Camwhores :P

Ended the day with Arcade and Cop Out with the guys at Tiong Bahru GV!

K session and pool with 08S21 on Thursday! It was 8 dollars nett cos Kbox was celebrating it's 8 year anniversary and luckily for us, Geng Chen was a Kbox member! Didn't get to sing enough though, cos they didn't allow us to extend due to the crowd and the bookings.

Awesome singing mate - Mok Fengru!

Camwhoring in the toilet

Group Photo!

Sleepy Zhang Fan

The Pro

Streetwave event at Mount Faber - RMPS health carnival

We were all so obsessed over this girl who's uber cute. She's called Celine! Totally remembered the way she told me her name. She's got this baby voice :D

Lok Yan Ning Celine!

People present at the event minus Alvin who went for a break

Celine with the junior board

Me with the girl who caused my left arm muscle to ache cos she was totally dependent on me lol!

She's only primary 1, but she's so daring and willing to try different stuff. Great kid (:

Oh yes, had steamboat opp Shaw Towers with Dom and his S20 classmates. Was walking around with Dom in Bugis Street before that and nothing caught my eye.. It's getting very repetitive.. Bought quite alot of stuff online though. I'm so gonna get killed. But yeah BC's having a sale ma :X

Anw he bought me S.H.E's new album! :D

Free gift for this album is the A4 folder on the top left hand corner! At the bottom is the booklet and on the right is the CD and the VCD for previous album's MVs.

The interior of the booklet. Hmm there were two concept for this album.. I wonder how the interior of the other one looks like..

Hehe love the album. Thanks alot dear! :D

Anyway, I want to catch The Lovely Bones badly!

Hmm well I've asked Xianghui to help me ask the rest in school already. Hope they're interested! And Siowyu msged me today telling me that it was scary and I may not be able to handle it.. Omg I hope not cos I really like the whole idea of this story (the movie is adapted from a book btw). But I've heard one of the tracks and it's indeed kinda, creepy. The lead actress is damn pretty! She's a Russian if I'm not wrong.. And her name is really cool Saoirse Ronan (pronounced Seer-Sha). Can't wait can't wait.

Saw many kites in the sky today otw to and fro Pasir Ris while sending Dom back to Tekong. Looks damn cool lah! But Siowyu says kite flying is boring :( Kay lor.. I wanna go kite flying someday!

Work at Toys R Us tomorrow then tuition at Boon Keng. Think Imma head to bed!

Friday, March 26, 2010
5:49 PM

You can't make up your mind mind mind mind mind
Please don't waste my time time time time time

I'm at work now! Shall update more with photos at night when I've got nothing to do and everyone's asleep heh. Dom booked out already! And he's coming over later yaye!

Slept at 5:40am this morning.. And woke up at 1pm. Not bad luh huh.. I sleep at 3am also wake up around this time. Was super engrossed watching Seohyun and YongHwa's We Got Married. I thought it would be weird at first cos Seohyun is SO innocent! But it turned out not bad! Love the part where they showcased the ring on MC or was it Inkiyago.. Haha but its just damn cute.. And when they went to buy Seohyun's guitar. I doubt many people will know what I'm talking about so oh well. Haha.

Yep Darren and Sky came and their outside making the rack for the rental boards. Love the way how Darren does things.. It always comes with a kind of.. Class? Just a unique vibe I guess. The shop looks cool as well, with the black walls.. Looks cosy :D Yep.

Hais that one thing is still bugging me.. I think the problem lies with me? Maybe I've really changed. Change is inevitable, we just have to deal with it appropriately and it also depends on whether change is for the better or for the worse. I used to hate change alot. Cos I find myself very accustomed and emotionally attached to things/people easily. But I've looked past that. Cos things are changing, people are leaving. Just like Mel has left WS. Yeah, I was indeed sad, but being sad doesnt change a thing. We still have to accept it and move on. So, I don't know. On my part I think I've tried my best. If it's seen negatively by others, I rest my case.

Kays. Update later on Minhui's visit to AH, Ikea meatballs, and cop out with the guys (:

Wednesday, March 24, 2010
3:40 AM

&& I miss my boy ):
9th April PLEASE COME SOOOONNN!

2:06 AM

These streets will make you feel brand new,
the lights will inspire you

Upset yesterday over certain stuff.. Gotta change something before it gets worse I guess? Maybe I'm really just someone who can't accept others' opinions. And I have to admit I'd really hate to hear negative stuff, though I say it all the time. It just makes me feel inferior.

Aside from that, met up with A.holes today to get free cones from Ben&Jerry's @ Great World! (Some of them ate 5 cones while waiting for me! :O )

Me with my free cone! (Think it was Cookies Delight or something)

Yep after that we headed to Queensway to have tze char! Took a very long bus ride from Great World to Queensway when it's supposed to be very near thanks to Nic who didn't want to transfer! :P

While waiting for foooooood. Omg I've got such small eyes. Can compare to Jim and Jin already lah.

Damien's gift from HK! It's a Donald Duck container with sweets btw! Didn't take a picture with the uber cute strawberry foldable bag though! Thanks Damien!

Chilli Crab! With not much sauce and no fried mantous! Xianlong if you're reading this, I'm craving for your Chilli Crab!

With the birthday card which had an Orang Utan in the front saying something on the lines of being very handsome LOL!

Came across this on 9gag.com.. Maybe we should do this for the next person's birthday!

Yup okay I don't know why I'm still awake at this time (it's 3:15am btw). And I've gotta accompany Minhui to AH later for her appointment at 9:40. Omg anything before waking up at 10 is considered early for me nowadays, since I sleep so late..

Other pictures which I've come across at 9gag.com:

Cute houses!

Cool eh, this person's desktop..

Maybe it's just me.

Monday, March 22, 2010
3:46 AM

Oh Darling, I wish you were here

Happy 1st year Heng Xianlong! Yep 22nd March! Well its a pity that Dom isn't out here on the day itself cos he needed to book in. But he made up for it by spending two days with me in town (: Haha thanks for sacrificing your precious sleep for me dear :P

Okay here goes:

Dinner at The Handburger @ 313

Yummy! Nutella and Marshmellow Milkshake

Hmm looks nice, let me try it

Melted Marshmellow!

Dom's meal: The Original Handburger

My meal: Tandoor Chicken Handburger

Overall the food was average. The milkshake rocks though! Company was awesome :D

Day 2: Shopping and having lunch together!

Otw to lunch at Canton-i. Hongkong Dimsum restaurant

Pretty pink and white birdcages in the background!

White Partitions at the side were pretty too!

My must-haves when eating dimsum: Chinese tea (Pu-Er in this case) and Ha Gao!

Brisket Beef Noodles

Dan Chao Fan in some kind of stone bowl. It tastes abit like claypot rice due to the stone.

Food and ambience were great at this restaurant! Totally love how they decorated the place with white and pink. Service was kinda poor though, they made us wait for 10 minutes at our seat without giving us the menu. Probably due to lack of manpower I guess :X

Last photo of the day with my lovely companion!

Vanilla Twilight - Owl City

The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere

'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you, dear
'Cause I wish you were here

I'll watch the night turn light-blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly

The silence isn't so bad
'Til I look at my hands and feel sad
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly

I'll find repose in new ways
Though I haven't slept in two days
'Cause cold nostalgia
Chills me to the bone

But drenched in vanilla twilight
I'll sit on the front porch all night
Waist-deep in thought because
When I think of you I don't feel so alone

I don't feel so alone, I don't feel so alone

As many times as I blink
I'll think of you tonight
I'll think of you tonight

When violet eyes get brighter
And heavy wings grow lighter
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again

And I'll forget the world that I knew
But I swear I won't forget you
Oh, if my voice could reach
Back through the past
I'd whisper in your ear
Oh darling, I wish you were here

3:10 AM

Anges went for Qihang 2010 to support our juniors! It was unexpectedly good! I mean, being first-timers for 3/4 of them, and having to deal with the split of CCS :/ Oh well, I would rate it 8/10 for good scripts and good lights&sounds, and also on the effort of the actors. It's a job well done overall!

Xie Mu! Well done SN Huahui!

Closer friends

The Red Badge people who were present

Blue Badge Juniors whom I actually still keep in contact with!

Oh yeah, I ordered the SNSD repackaged album! Comes with two posters :D Got one for Yiling also.. Hope she doesn't see this cos it's meant to be a surprise. Oh well, don't think she will cos I think everyone thinks my blog is dead heh.

Checked with CD Rama too, and it's said that SHERO (S.H.E's new album) will be released on the 26th. Maybe I'll go preorder at some place convenient enough. The closure of Sembawang music store has caused distress ZZZ. I'm reluctant to preorder from CD Rama, idk why.

Okay so here's the overall plan for the coming week (not gonna work much :/) :

Monday: Slack at home, get enough sleep, prepare and go for tuition @ Boon Keng

Tuesday: Damien's birthday celebration! Meeting up with the bulk of them A.holes finally (: It's been long since we gathered! Going for free ice cream cones at B&J @ Great World City and then dinner somewhere nearby or something.

Wednesday: Accompany Minhui to Alexandria Hospital for her eye checkup with Huabin and maybe PC who's probably gonna be late. He still owes me a meal and my present :P Head down to Ikea for meatballs! Since it's nearby and probably get some furniture (drawers for my cupboard since it's real messy and it's time to pack). And also maybe drop by Cotton On Kids to check out on Kelly! Perhaps watching a movie too.. Any good movies to suggest?

Thursday: Work at Toy's R Us @ Forum. It's been long since I've worked at any Toys R Us outlet. Need to go get Juggernaut at ECP.. Maybe on tuesday before meeting A.holes. Anyone keen for breakfast?

Friday: Work at 4pm @ East Coast. Yaye Dom's gonna book out!

Saturday: Work at Mount Faber. Dno if I should cancel it cos its real early and far. But I love events like this! Okay probably wouldn't cancel it.

Sunday: Work at Toys R Us @ Forum. Bo bian luh, need money so just work at Toys R Us since slots at ECP isn't available. Nevermind! I've got company! Just checked and Ken just put his name for Forum too!

Hmm classmates have been asking for a ktv session! But all is not confirmed. Looks like I can only make it if it's on a Thursday.. Cos I'm kinda unwilling to give up my place for ECP on Friday. Oh well. See how it goes then!

It's 5:05 and I'm still so energetic :/ Perhaps should have forced myself to stay awake just now. Instead of dozing off while using the computer, and missing Dom's call again :/ I get really angry at myself whenever that happens. Cos when I call back I'll hear the Starhub announcement thing and be very disappointed. Hmm okay, if there's no one that I wanna talk to online, I shall go to bed!