Monday, October 12, 2009
10:52 PM
Been keeping this to myself for a damn long time. Feel like venting this out somewhere, hoping someone or some people would stumble across it and actually think and care about how I feel.
It's just so unfair how H can bring T along wherever we go and they don't even bother to call D along. A has nothing against T or anything but the sight just makes A think about D and how A is unable to have the best of both worlds. A, on A's part, have to travel to and fro like an idiot, wasting precious time, just so that the tension between X and D doesn't worsen any further than how it is now. And when X met A and D just now, X didn't even have the slightest intention of inviting D along. And when G couldn't come cos of E, they just merely mentioned that we actually don't know E very well cos we don't talk much to E, just ask G to bring E along the next time. And this conversation was thrown in A's face where A kept quite the whole while cos obviously A's mind was somewhere else, and A doesn't even think anyone noticed.
And obviously A would want to go to - with D. We're finding a table of 10 when we've only got 8. Then T is very automatically included in the table. Fine. So we've got 9. And only because we needed 1 more then they asked D. And that was only after they asked a few other people. In the end D rejected cos D didn't want it to be awkward for anyone, especially during -. They didn't even care about what A wanted, just brushed it off and continued to ask other people. In the end they settled for N who isn't currently on good terms with H to sit with us. A is more than happy for N to be sitting with us because N is A's friend. But they rather not include D even if including N would make H unhappy and T feel awkward.
So now we're all on friendly terms with T, it takes effort, right? Why can't the same amount of effort be put into being friendly with D too? X always says A spends too much time with D but A can't possibly split into two. Compared to H, who doesnt even need to split cos T is beside H all the time so naturally X doesn't blame H. X should know what A is like. A treats X as one of the bestest friends A has ever had. But X had been spiteful towards A, so A changes. And A does sacrifice, even if it seems insignificant to X. May X does this genuinely because X cares about the friendship with A. But how about the rest. Maybe, they simply just don't care about A's feelings. And they claim to be A's friends.
I'm done venting my grievances; if people actually regard this as a grievance at all. Hope no one gets offended. Names used are false identites to protect whatever rights they got over their names. Peace out.