Thursday, May 29, 2008
3:35 PM
& Afterall you're my WonderwallHow am I supposed to let you know, that this feeling of insecurity never leaves me? Will you be there to reassure me? Or have you already regretted your decision?
Rah stop thinking about it.
And all the streetlights shine
like they were stars,
Have been slacking at home for the whole of today and the feeling is super shiok! Better treasure times like this or else will start being busy again without even knowing it. Planned out my holiday schedule already and I realised that I only have 5 full days free :/ Rah!
Going iceskating with dearest friends from WS tomorrow! Haven't seen them in ages! Can't wait for Batam trip :D Oh yeah and I'm working for Streetwave starting this Saturday at ECP! Do pop by if you're free!
翻滚吧! 蛋炒饭 seems nice! It's been awhile since I've been watching my TW dramas. Last was dou niu I guess? Support Da Dong! :D
& I'll start believing again (:
Heart don't fail me now
Courage don't desert me
Went down to ECP today for the interview for the swaveboard booth thing. Lasted only for 2 mins, then Laopa brought me to learn how to use it! At first I couldn't then I kept trying, then Laopa damn nehneh la! She was supposed to treat me like a student and not a friend while teaching me! RAH! But then it's damn fun once you've mastered it and I'm proud to say I did it! I can do the front and back turns, and go between cones and I learnt all of that in less than 4 hours yay :D Laopa owes me VITASOY cos I managed to do the cones today! (:
Right after that, chionged home and then out again to meet Nicholas, Denise, Christopher, Shenn, Yixuan, Minwei and Leon at City Hall to go Esplanade library! Well you see, the original plan was to study, but we ended up going to the rooftop garden and so all study plans were cancelled, especially when Neh and I started to chiong down to get Movenpick :D The chocolate and maple walnut flavours were the nicest! We also went to Fullerton to erm, explore. We got scolded for using the grand piano :X Yeah then the whole session turned out to be a camwhore session lol.
Okay then this really dumb thing happened. The rest of them were gonna take MRT from Raffles Place to change train cos its faster, and I was heading home and I wanted to take to Marina Bay so that I have seats. So we were all on the same platform. Then as my MRT was leaving, Neh wanted to NP me so she rushed in, then the door CLOSED. Hilarious man! Should have seen her reaction. In the end I realised I forgot to take the econs notes that Leon kindly offered to lend me so both of us had to alight from the train in the end lol.
Have to be in schl tmrw by 7am can.. Zzz TIRED :\
& tell me the meaning of this.
So faraway for far too long
Just returned from the second West Zone Line Camp! Played a different role and learnt alot more, and there’s also a greater sense of satisfaction (: Love all the FHs! Shenn, Shawn, Damien, Hanisah and Nicholas! I think we make a great team :D
This time was really quite scary. Our fam spot was outside library, and we got scolded by this J2 teacher in the library while cheering. Twice. The second time while Shyiva was talking to F3 halfway he shouted at her saying: “You don’t care, I care, and I will expel all of you! You, you, you and you! (he was pointing at all the facs)” The teachers and councilors were informed of what happened and told us not to care and to continue what we have to do. So when it was lunch, JingXing lead the food cheer damn loudly, and we got scolded the third time. But this time all the teachers in charge came to talk to that particular teacher. The campers all became so solemn lah, super scary.. But after that they made an expel clap quoting that teacher lol. They are super cute!
Night games was changed to those freaky night walk kind with "ghosts" walking around. Hanisah came back crying luh, luckily I didn't go.
Second day’s Kinetic Warfare was really WAR man! Especially the second part, F2 and F3 became allies cos F1’s structure was really imba. I think it did a great deal in bonding the family (:
Hmm Line night!
Didn’t really screw up family performance like how I did in CDAYL :X This time campers were included in the performance as well :D Alot of people came to crash, and I mean ALOT. Saw Fengru and her hockey friends, Jiaxin and her friends, and also DP, Razak and the ruggers! Oh oh and DP gave me honey lemon drink and Jiaxin went to develop the two photos that I really really like and wrote a sweet note behind it :D Yay F1 warriors rock!
After Line night we immediately had Eweb under the stars! Damn cool lah, the atmosphere’s much better than the usual morning Ewebs. Watched the Heartprints video (yes, again), then went for supper.
Then during supper F3 was high to the max! Campers actually initiated all the cheers by themselves and came up with new cheers impromptu. Was screaming at Nicholas telling him how happy I was haha. Then don’t know who, most probably Jingxing, went to teach my LG my claps! So embarrassing rah!
After debrief Kinonn and King were at the leaders board area and they started sucking in the helium from the balloons and their voices all changed lah! Then within seconds everyone chionged to go suck helium also. So you could see everyone squeezing together and trying it out cos the balloons were tied together with twine. Then our faces were like all red from trying to stifle our laughter in case we wake the campers. So we moved to the pathway between grandstand and the hall. And Jam started singing umbrella with that squeaky voice. Jacky also started taking a lot of videos. Damn super funny!
Third day was just some yoga talk we had to attend with the campers and they were dismissed from there. Took LG photos, family photos and the campers refuse to leave lah. Also very she bu de ):
Yep and when the campers left all the facs were supposed to move and arrange all the tables below the grandstand then Kinonn and King found the HELIUM TANK.. Then Kinonn was like: WHERE’S ANGES! Then I immediately rushed over to the helium tank and we took turns to suck in the helium. Took in a lot of helium then lead
After the camp Nicholas and I went to meet a group of campers, we went to Toysrus to play :D Created a din inside and while I was teaching the few boys rubik’s cube, a few people stood around to watch and I didn’t even realise! Went to meet Shenn and the other usual few + DP! at subway and had our fun :D
Many other funny things happened also, like T to the heart and *ahem cough cough* pretty lady! Internal joke (: Made many new friends among facs as well, honestly don’t regret anything (:
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Don't sell your heart,
Don't say we're not meant to be
Run baby run,
Forever we'll be, You and me
Met up with my Valentines on Vesak day! Went to East Coast Park, we FINALLY went to the beach after.. 3 years of planning lol -.- Rode a two-seater bike for the first time and I think I'm only suited for the front seat cos my legs are too long and will hit the handle if I'm at the back. Not insulting you ah Sista!
Hmm and we camwhored like mad. What's new? (; Tried the swaveboard that Laopa introduced. She's working at this swaveboard booth and I may join her soon! Haven't felt so carefree in a long long time. Esti was saying that too (: I miss the times I felt so comfortable around people. She told me something which made me feel really _______ (indescribable). She said, "Aiya doesn't matter lah, dou zhe yang shou le!" So sweet right! Hmm so sad Brother and Lingyyyy couldn't make it :/ Nvm stayover at Laopa's hse during June! :D
Line camp tmrw! Okay officially it starts today. Feel super unprepared. First time I'm feeling so stressed up over a camp. Different responsibilities different level of stress maybe? Spent these few days preparing for it and today Hanisah and I didn't even have the time to visit the canteen.
Came home at 11.30 today like super late?! And we're supposed to have 3 tests and 2 projects due within these two days. So happens that I'm in charge of the two projects, which explains why I'm here in the wee hours of the morning. Hmm don't know when we're gonna take our econs essay test.. Oh well alot of admin things to settle in class also. Aiya don't care first :P
Yay JJ won AC 5-0 in Guys Badminton Semis tdy! Hope we'll win tmrw for Girls Finals. Then we can yi pa an de neh all we want. I guess? Oh ya super random I think Xiaowei either heard me or saw me from the opposite side then she smsed me to ask if I was there. She was supporting VJ who was competing against MJ and they won! Yay Viva la Victoria :D
& You, _ ____ ___
Why do all good things come to an end
Flames to dustLovers to friends
Lots of stuff to do! Just came back from Banni camp, Sports Day, Badminton semis and West Zone prep camp, so.. imagine Anges' voice now. Gotta get it back by Thursday man, so now have to swallow lots of lozenges and alot of pi pa gao. They make my new best friends.Went home super late on Saturday as well, cos we were playing with um.. hahaha shouldn't disclose lah. Just take a look around LT5 and see if you spot any two things that unknowingly turned silver hahaha. We're adding colour to people's lives okay, thank us. Hahaha hilarious!
Was at CCKCC yest with F3 to come up with the dance moves to our family performance. Then met up with my classmates to do our GP proj at Lot1. Was super impromptu so nan de all of us could make it, and luckily I was near Lot1 or else I think I would be completely turned off lol. They were LOTS of fun man, indescribable.
Oh ya our CT emailed our progress report to us online. Hmm can I say I'm quite satisfied with mine? Super tyco lah, considering that I slacked the whole term. And Miss Prav should be so proud of me man!---
Maths - D
Chemistry - A
Physics - S
GP - C
Econs - D
CT's remarks: Anges is talented in Chemistry. She should work harder in other weaker subjects in order to achieve balance success. Please stay focus and do not sigh during lesson.---
HAHA last line. I actually sigh during lessons unknowingly huh -.-
Fengru's and Jinghui's comments were around the same.. minus the sighing part lol. The guys' were the ultimate! We all roared with laughter in the LIBRARY after seeing the comments.
You said you were wrong. Wrong in what sense? Wrong to have _____ me? Wrong to have done all those stuff to make me ____ you too? Wrong to have stopped _____ me? Or wrong to have hurt me by letting me know? You made me so used to having you around it seems like I can't do without you now. Can you tell? Can you tell that I'm struggling to wear that smile on my face everyday? So what if you can tell? You don't even care.
& why are we strangers? I feel as if I don't know you, as if I never knew you before.
It's a feeling that we cannot miss
It burns a hole
Through everyone that feels it
Why are you such a weakling? I'm giving you till end of term to get a grip on yourself. Wake up, please. Wake up now.
I'm in the business of misery
Let's take it from the top
Went for Banni leader camp on Friday and Saturday. Really quite enriching I must say. On Friday we went down to CCAB to support our rugby players. JJ lost but the ruggers did their best la, no regrets (: Yep went back to school to have SSS among ourselves, and Mr Leow disclosed ALOT of secrets about Yihao and Weijie, so they did the same to him lol. Circle of trust yes? S21 was alot of fun :D After that we viewed two videos which really made me inspired.
Both were like biographies of these two women. The first was featuring Rudine, who was facing an anorexic related problem. She was super skinny you could see only bones beneath the flesh, and she could go round her upper arm using her index finger and her thumb, and in between there was still space.
The thing that appalled everyone was that she STILL found herself fat. She couldn't bring herself to eat anything and she could tell you the exact amount of calories in each type of food. She was struggling for survival to force herself to eat, and a few times when she almost succeeded she suffered a relapse. Yeah and in the end she passed away, when she was still very young. The important question here was, "How?" She tried her best but she didn't know how to do it. And she warns everyone out there not to start crash dieting.
The second was featuring Jacque. She was someone who had the potential to be some big shot in the society, and she had her own dreams but everything seemed to be impossible when this reckless driver who drank too much collided with the car she was in. The car was in flames and so was she, and she was rescued successfully.
From that instant her life changed, she was disfigured, had no hair, and her hands were all burnt with no fingers remaining. She had to go through around 50 operations after that accident. The driver was jailed for around 7 years, so the host of the show invited the mother of the driver upstage to talk to Jacque. You could feel that she had so much to say but she couldn't, and Jacque simply hugged her, and told her "It's okay, it's alright." She didn't have any hatred in her and that's what's most admirable, it takes alot to forgive the person who made her end up in this plight.
I was thinking, if I were her I would have killed myself, but she said she was happy she survived, reason being she had alot of things she hasn't accomplished. I really admire the courage these two people have man.
The next morning, Mr Leow and Weijie took us for morning pt, and we were running on the outer lanes of the tracks with this rhythm as if we were marching and going for a war lol. Yeah it was drizzling and halfway we saw this rainbow above the PD block. It's been a long time since I've seen one. Then Mr Leow told us that these are the simple things in life that we fail to appreciate, and he asked us, "When was the last time you believed in rainbows?" Someone behind me said, "When we learn about light." And everyone laughed. But I think what he said is true. As we grow older, we learn more, we stop believing.
Haha the camp so enriching right!
Yep after the camp I immediately rushed back home to bathe and rushed out again to meet F1 people for JJ Talentime! Sorry Jiaxin! I really feel super guilty but well you managed to catch the last bit la, positive attitude right! Bleah sorry leh! Rahh. Yeah the whole show was damn good, its definitely worth more than $10 bucks man! Camwhored like crazy with them, esp Jiaxin and DP! And also with my beloved S21! (with some people missing :/)
Then we left and we went to JP Macs. Met alot of other JJCians and we were so noisy. Laughed like mad when we were taking photos. Only those involved would know why HAHA. Oh well, F1 rocks man! Love them to bits. Jacket coming soon kk! :D And to whoever who has photos: I WANT PHOTOS! And if I scared anyone yesterday sorry hor hahaha.
Rah I forgot to mention I missed two Physics test on Friday. Yeah I went to school late. I reached at like.. 1pm? Before that went to get MC from amk polyclinic. Damn super slow la I will never ever do that again lol. Go against my conscience just to get an MC and to skip 2 Physics tests :X Zzz. Alright Sista's birthday coming up next! Can't wait to see my 7 valentines again (:
Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest,
Last night after training Jeriann gave out those affirmation cards again. It was my first time getting it and I was the first she gave. She shuffled the cards while looking at me, and the card that flipped out was Communication. Then we had to read the small book with the analysis and I have to admit its scarily accurate, especially when I just blogged about it the previous night.
Well my affirmation was this: "I communicate from my heart, and love surrounds and protects me." I'm supposed to keep telling myself this and see if it works for me.
It was also mentioned that we had to remember the first thing that came into our minds and I did. Went home to face the first thing that came into my mind but to no avail. I tried my best. Maybe that is what's troubling me in the first place. I really think it is.
Leave out all the rest
Cause it's nine in the afternoon
Nowadays it comes to a point whereby there's so much to say but nothing comes out. It's hard. Everyone is experiencing different things, and sadly if you're alone in a new environment, no one knows what exactly you're talking about because no one is actually able to imagine what's going on. So you become so immune to it you don't tell anyone anything anymore.
& I've got this feeling, that maybe You don't need me, at all.
Check yes Juliet, are you with me?
Rain is falling down on the sidewalk
I won’t go until you come outside
Yeah I'm slacking at home today cos there's no beach training! So nan de I get to sleep in on a Sunday morning Zzz..
I realised I'm super dependent on Laopo nowadays. During training yesterday I needed her to pace me to do all the sets which I actually completed, and when I lose her I won't be able to continue. Yeah and it may not necessarily be a good thing? Imagine if she doesn't come for training.. What's gonna happen to me! Haha but THANK YOU LA LAOPO, YOU KNOW I LOVE YOU THE MOST RIGHT :D
Oh ya and since everyone is thanking their bodies, I shall thank mine too! Thank you body for allowing me to swim properly yesterday, make sure you do better the next training okay! Shucks I think now everyone thinks WS consists of weirdos who talk to their own bodies hahaha.
The water is getting warmer nowadays, and its super difficult to train for some reason. Okay maybe I'm just finding excuses. Oh yeah anyway Emily said I could sleep with Ariel during Batam because we were so noisy yesterday hahaha. Promise ah Emily! Later don't complain if everyone else isn't able to sleep :P Ariel's getting superrrr cute nowadays! I've completely brainwashed her into calling me Bestfriend and King already :D
And I'm feeling super accomplished cos I actually studied for Physics! After lunch with fellow 08S21-s at JP I went to look for He Jiajun at Macs to do work. Okay halfway we were like forced to order something and after that we even got chased out cos its a weekend and there's no studying cos the customers have nowhere to sit. But I managed to complete my Dynamics notes! I compiled the whole thick stack into one sheet of paper k! Yeah Mother's Day is coming so must do well for the next test. Haha get the link? (;
Alright I shall play my Pokemon for awhile more then continue to be a MUGGER!
And every time that I try I get tongue tied
I'll need a little good luck to get me by
Woots! It's Labour day today and I'm pigging out at home! Damn lazy to touch any of my work but I guess I will have to.. soon (: Yeah and I'll have to kick off this bad habit of procrastinating in time to come.
I've been playing Pokemon Silver on my phone since.. Monday? It's like super duper addictive I'm even playing it during some lectures but I do pay attention to the important stuff k! And it's proven that girls can multitask afterall so no worries! But I've been so engrossed in it that I lag when I reply the people around me especially Fengru and Jinghui my two beloved classmates! :X And I played until my battery died on me yesterday. Haha my cute Totodile evolved into Croconaw already, it's so ugly now like a baby crocodile wearing pampers. Okay I better stop this before I sound like someone who has no childhood :P
I've been looking forward to school as well! (points to Jiaxin's entry today) It's not the workload but the people I see! Hmm like 08S21, F1 warriors and alot of other people! Oh and on Monday, Kaihui and I ran out of CS when we were only 45 mins into the lesson by saying this line, "Maaf Cikgu, boleh saya pergi ke tandas?" and we never came back from there and he actually told the class that we were sleeping in the toilet -.- Don't care him luh, sucha cheap thrill :D
Yay He Jiajun is finally back! Saw him during training yesterday. Don't be discouraged k! I really think you overtrained. Oh and study hard, good luck for your Mid-years!
And much thanks to a particular Big Bully! Don't know when you'll see this but thanks for accompanying me back to school to get my stuff, no idea why I became so blur. And sorry I made you late for the course! Plus don't emo already la! Find back your motivation and study hard okay! No chances the next time you doze off during lecture! :P