Monday, September 29, 2008
10:49 PM
I thought that I should let you know
That my heart is Damaged
Weekend after promos was ABSOLUTELY fun! Saturday was spent at Shenn's hse singing k and then to ECP for swaveboard and steamboat! K was fun! Sang Pan Duo La like twice? Jacky loves it lol! Yep and soon we were on our way to ECP!
Well it was the boss' birthday so they wanted to close early, luckily we went there just in time! And so the keys were entrusted to me in the end while the bosses went to have their dinner. Oh and good news! I've got a pay rise!
After a long time waiting for seats, we started eating at 8 and we finished up at 11 plus like whoa! In the end when we decided to make our way out it was midnight and I missed my last bus! So I got the Daddy to come and pick me, he rocks!
Details + more photos in Jiaxin, Jacky and Shenn's blogs!
Slept in uber late on Sunday, slacked awhile and starting to pia all my dramas! Finally done with Dan Chao Fan! Cliche but then Da Dong is funny luh. I wanna rewatch and watch alot of dramas! Somehow I found myself hooked onto Digimon Tamers again okay don't laugh at me!
Today Fengru, Jinghui and I ponned Econs and went to sing Kbox. Damn hilarious so many things happened while singing that I think I laugh until I've got abs le. Oh yeah I lost 3kg during this promos period! Cool or what! And to think I thought I gained weight.. Yes this is what promos do to you.
Gonna stayover at Shenn's hse tmrw! Damn looking forward to it cos we're gonna bake our own pizzas and movie marathon!
Right, back to my Digimon Tamers :P And Lan Qiu Huo's getting exciting!
Underneath this smile, my world is slowly caving in
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street
The nightmare's finally over! "Omg can you believe it?" -Fengru
Lol yes I just got to settle down from this very long day outside. Reached home at ard 1.45a.m? Yeah half awake too, after killing those brain cells for Physics in the morning. At least it was way better than the guessing game we all played the day before.
Talking about games, I've just returned from Mind's cafe with dear friends from WS. I swear they are so much fun. Made the most noise there as usual lol. Shall blog about it in detail in the next post. Damn tired! But happy at least (:
K session, swaveboard session and steamboat all in one tmrw with friends from JJ. Err how to name this group? I also don't know lol okay I wanna shui jiao le!
& it's time to face something I've shelved away for promos.Love,Hurt, me. With all your might. It doesn't matter anymore.
We had a million questions
All about our lives
And when we got to New York
Everything felt right
Finally conquered the EVER-DETESTABLE organic chem. Not that bad, really. I should stop taking this so negatively.
FM S.H.E's cool right (: It's like they're having alot of fun. Plus there's this song where they incorporated Michael Jackson into it. My favourite song for the moment is Wo Ai Fan Nao! Maybe cos it's a fast song. Yes Anges likes fast songs and usually takes a longer time to appreciate slow songs (there are exceptions though).
I think I'm the only idiot wasting my time here blogging. C'mon get a gripppp, for the umpteenth time!
Just 2 more days. CAN PULL THROUGH. Jiayou everyone! (Esp Anges Loy the slacker)
[Edit] I've seen many planes these few days but nobody around to hit my hand so cannot consider as catch :/ [/Edit]
They call me 'Hell'
They call me 'Stacey'
They call me 'her'
They call me 'Jane'
That's not my name
3 down 2 more to go. Quite sure that I'm quite safe from the R word and arbitrarily closer to the P word. For now. Let's hope the curve will cut through some y = P(romote) with some changes made to y = f(x). Okay ignore that I think what I just said doesn't really make sense.
So now, faced with Chemistry and Physics, my by-far best and worst subjects respectively, should I go for both or just concentrate on one?
Today Mokkie, Siewyi and I were discussing how screwed the exam system is. Econs as a H2 is 1 hour 55 minutes and Physics/Chemistry as a H2 is 3 hours 15 minutes (and still counting). I honestly don't really give a damn about what conditions are required for some organic reactions with whatever KMnO4 and heat under reflux shit.
It only makes me wonder why I even took Science in the first place. Well I like Maths, and my only other favoured subject is Econs. If I went by interest I would have taken: Maths (H2), Econs (H2), English Literature (H2) and Geography (H1)? But there's no such combination and I don't even know what I wanna do in the future so better to follow something, foolproof.
Gonna drag myself to hit the books tonight, no matter how grouchy or unwilling I am right now.
On a lighter note, it's 23rd of September officially now and I'm gonna get my hands on that long-awaited FM S.H.E in a few hours time!
Back to the books. Bye.
One step at a time
Give me some time, give me some space to catch my breath so that each time when I look at you I wouldn't feel so faint.
Go. Away. If you wish, as you please.
But you know I'll never leave you.
Oh hot damn, this is my jam
Keep me partying till the A.M.
Y'all don't understand,
Make me throw my hands
In the ayer, ay-ayer, ayer, ay-ayer
2 down, 3 more to go. Was surprised when price elasticity didn't come out for Econs, but luckily I didn't put all my focus on that. Hope I'll do well though. And hope that the examiner can see my handwriting esp the last page. I swear I was shivering like crazy even in my jacket. My hands were frozen stiff and my handwriting became rather, illegible.
Ya then don't know who suggested bringing gloves the next time -.-
I'm super unproductive these few days, cannot! I'm gonna stay at home tmrw and glue myself to the chair (not in front of the comp, hopefully). Why must S.H.E's album release at this kind of timing! It's okay we've waited long enough (:
Yeah anyway Yan Hai Gong Lu De Chu Kou's MV is out, An Jing Le and the 30s preview of Nv Ren Dang Zi Qiang are released too. I totally laughed out loud when I went to hear the preview lah, the song is UBER funny. Seems like they're still playing after their PLAY album.
Another major distraction would be Hot Shot. Tmrw's gonna be ep 9. Gonna watch on pps and let my mind do the Maths paper in peace while others are still thinking about it waiting for it to be uploaded :P
Can't wait for 26th and 27th of September! We're SO gonna party :D
Do you catch a breath
When I look at you
Are you holding back
Like the way I do
Cause I'm tryin, tryin to walk away
我不知道这些事值不值得去想,
我只知道我无法控制自己不去想它
已经很久了, 到底这折磨几时才会结束?
还是它才刚开始?
我不知道, 我不想知道
如果能放下就好了
Because I had a very very bad dream.
I've made mistakes that I can't erase,
I've made mistakes
Alright things are starting to look better! Bought my new sneakers todayyyyy, ponning pw tutorial, maths tutorial and pw lecture, with a one hour break in between. Waste of time one lorh! But I'm ponning waaaay too many lessons! Anyway met Miss Lau Jiaxin on her way to school when I was walking out, and she bought 3 pairs of earstuds for me! :D The smiley one, the playdoh look-alike one, and stars! We saw it together the other day! Yaye so happy (: Today is a happy day!
Yep and when I reached home, I discovered S.H.E's new single's MV. It's called 宇宙小姐 go watch! Click here to view! Their dance is REALLY good, plus they are super robotic in there, damn nice! Can't wait for their next album, gonna be released 23rd September. Oh plus there's another slow song called 沿海公路的出口 which absolutely rocks with their harmonising! I mean, S.H.E leh!
Upon discovering the MV I called AH TECK to ask her if she's seen it! Omg super long never update her already although we just saw each other on Teacher's Day. But so many teachers and friends to see then didn't really have time to talk and really catch up. But she's still as dumb as before :P I MISS YOU TECKSTER! Call me soon girl! :D
The wound on my leg is healing but the blueblack is spreading and its absolutely disgusting. Plus there's a lump that hurts near the wound. Mom asked me to come home early tmrw to go see doctor and have a jab. Oh man I hate jabs. I hope it wouldn't hurt.
Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said,
Super unlucky these few days, esp last night (Tuesday). Didn't sleep at all and only managed to bathe at 4.30am. Yes so I just bathed and went to school. Credit to some _______ thing called PW. Trust me, it wasn't last minute. It was just that I lost my work, not only once but twice. And I was effing tired and irritated I just totally broke down the second time.
Almost died in school. Felt super pathetic with the dog bite injury and a peeling face cos of the sunburn from the weekend PLUS I was dead tired. Felt so pathetic I flew home the instant I was released and fell into deep sleep for 6 hours straight instantly.
Despite all that I'm glad I have all my friends around me. Met up with the 5 of them, cos Maple fell sick and Yiling had food poisoning. Camwhored at the playground and laughed at Siowyu (as usual). Didn't wanna leave but oh well, look forward to the next meeting [:
Laopa gave me my paycheck from August. Yeah I wanna get new sneakers :D
Hey captain where'd you go?
Talk about Love
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
And bring on the thunder
& this I'll remember for life
Lifesaving open water nationals yesterday, once in a lifetime experience. Got bitten by Jeremy's dog on the inner thigh. It didn't eat off any of my flesh but left 4 holes and many scratches, and it resulted in swelling and a huge bruise beyond the wound itself. I never knew a dog bite could be so serious. Well I didn't provoke it but I think I scared it abit, a good lesson learnt anyhow.
Thanks to Em and Jasmine for helping with dressing the wound and to the few who were there for me (:
Apart from that, beach nationals was very, and I mean VERY exciting this year. Many close fights, some which WS got the medal, some which we missed by that bit. Esp for the guys. The organisation was not bad too, didn't waste alot of time unlike last year, except maybe for the emcee who keeps changing our team's name and was being quite, annoying stating the obvious lol. Nice chatting with Lim Jieying for quite some time during the beach sprints and relays (:
The tamplin relay was AWESOME. At first Jim was paddling second last out of ard 10 people. Then when he passed it on to Tjian for swimming he emerged first! Then Leonard maintained the lead even though he capsized on the surfboard (which he reacted so fast that I didn't even realise while staring all the way) Good thing he didn't give up, first time see his face got the shag look. Then PC was super funny when he ran, with the classic "octopus" face. This race was an eye-opener man! Oh well, good job to everyone!
Had a team talk over takeaway Carl's Jr dinner at the Sky Garden in Vivo city after that. Many issues raised but not resolved. Found myself guilt-striken. Something should be done about it. But what? I still haven't found my answer. Should take this period of preparing for promos as a break, to find out what I really want to achieve. To find back that motivation I once had and never got to find back.
& there's something I ought to give up, out of so many. How do I make the decision?
I really really really love this team.
I have known you my whole life
When you were ten,
You said you'd make me your wife
And eight years later you won me over
Just as I took the world on my shoulders
I got used to living without you
Endless phone calls and dreaming about you
Always said that you were my man to be
But I guess I was in love with your memory
You know I love you, I really do
But I can't fight anymore for you
And I don't know,
Maybe we'll be together again
Sometime, in another life
In another life
I know I said that I would keep my word
I wished that I could save you from the hurt
But things will never go back to how we were
I'm sorry I can't be your world
You know I love you, I really do
But I can't fight anymore for you
And I don't know,
Maybe we'll be together again
Sometime, in another life
In another life
The way you're holding on to me
Makes me feel like I can't breathe
Just let me go, just let me go
It just won't feel right inside
God knows I've tried
You know I love you, you know I do
But I can't fight anymore for you
And I don't know,
Maybe we'll be together again
Sometime, in another life
In another life
In another life
In another life
AUDREY :D
I may have failed
But I have loved you from the start
Anges Loy has officially morphed into a mugger! I swear it's crazy, take for example yesterday, I studied from 11am to 2am (yes 15 hours Damien, not 3), only taking breaks for meals and to bathe. But after that I felt super accomplished I became quite high. So the sister and I went to the living room to "play", and this is the end product:
Cool or what! 7 balloons in 1. Yeah this is what a bored kid and her crazy-from-studying sister is capable of doing lol.
Yeah then today was back to school for more mugging. I'm almost done with Maths! Then I can concentrate on other subjects le. My best friends (for now): 
(Yeah I got quite bored so I started playing with the functions. The GC looks quite cool right!)
Janice said I've changed. Changed from someone who's super decisive to someone who's wishy-washy about decisions. And I think I did. I know I did. Well at least I didn't waste her time today. She managed to change my mind about something, though I don't know how long I can hold.
Beach Nationals this Saturday and Sunday! Go WS! (:
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Making my way downtown
Walking fast, faces pass and I'm homebound
Still water yesterday was rather, disappointing for me. Timing for 50m obs didn't improve. Same as the time I did for NUS, and our team got 5th for that event. Individual event was a-okay, could feel that I went faster, but shouldn't have preserved energy from the start. Third of my heats, so obviously no medal lah. Overall I still felt that I could have done better. Too late for regrets.
So as expected, ending up not studying at all, challenging DJ max with the rest, and entertaining the coaches' darling princess, with a little help from Annis Loy whom Ariel abandoned me for lol.
Dinner with part of the team at AMK. Had steamboat and ran away with Ariel to the bookstore cos I was too full, cos Uncle Tjian took so much food! Well that girl was being so childish! Just because I didn't give her my ice cream she doesn't wanna friend me. Sorry but that's orders from the queen lol.
Right, jokes aside, we had a mini team talk after dinner. And that made me wonder, what do I really want? Yes I stayed because of friends, but I know I want more than just that. I know I want to achieve. Emily asked: "Do you guys want me to push you?" And I didn't take long to ponder, because I know for sure that it's a yes.
Perhaps I knew that long ago, perhaps it was always at the back of my mind. Having no time to commit is an excuse, not a reason. If I can find time to play, surely I can use that time to actually do something constructive to improve myself. But why do I brush that aside time and time again? And I find myself more than guilty of the acts mentioned, like going for training and chatting away, taking my own sweet time before I actually get down into the water. Where is the motivation?
Plus I've seen enough of some stuff to know. I absolutely hate detest betrayers, traitors, anything along that line. Too bad I can't disclose more. Or that person will die a horrible death.
I really don't know.