Tuesday, October 31, 2006
11:51 PM
CHEFS IN THE MAKING :
yiling
siowyu
esti
cecilia
angesweiting
maple
joanne
weiting is just a slacker
maple is just always coincidently busy
joanne is just, the birthday girl (:
mentally and physically drained, but nevertheless i enjoyed myself thoroughly this two days!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ANG WEI'EN JOANNE! :D
jing tian, you ren huan xi you ren chou -
Well this calls for a toast, so pour the champagne
pour the champagne
gooooooong! to think i thought i never would have watched it!
under the canopy of love's ending proved that tvb endings are rather predictable.
but then again, if shumlong and sze weren't together in the end i think i would have flew to hk to bash up the scriptwriter.
ohwells, gonna start on chinese tomorrow (:
bu hai pa, bu dan xin, wo he xin fu you yue ding
jiu suan shi ji mo ye bu li,
ying wei si nian rang ai ling ju li
wei le ni, wo yuan yi, duo yong xin zhao gu zi ji
ye qing ni qian wang bie wang ji,
wo men ceng he xing fu you yue ding
to kbox with xiaowei today!
yes, only xiaowei and we didn't have to worry whether others had the chance to sing.
and then all that we sang were all S.H.E songs, except for tiantianyeye.
had a damn enjoyable time but then there were still so many songs we wanted to sing!
they have like nine albums, there's no way we could finish it all.
nevermind, the next time we go again we shall sing other songs we didnt sing today (:
and now i shall declare my deep hatred for EK.
i hate him/her because he/she gives me bruises on my knees and i had a hard time twisting my left wrist to be able to tow him/her and my wrist is aching badly now.
my dear EK, i can dance with you, sit on you, kick you, bash you but not tow you.
so you'd better swim properly when i'm around. don't drown especially when i'm there, because you can't float by yourself and you will drown.
don't come after me after your 1039720345th death, i warned you!
I remember now, like it was yesterday
elit, ss egeog and amaths were seriously all a total disappointment.
so yesterday was facing one disappointment after another.
and walking around your neighbourhood for one and a half rounds is seriously, good.
im gonna do that again (:
This feeling's like no other,
I want you to know:
I've never had someone that knows me like you do,
The way you do
I've never had someone as good for me as you,
No one like you.
So lonely before, I've finally found,
What I've been looking for
i want my amaths paper back this instance!
man i'd pinned all my hopes on this paper.
currently re-hooked onto Under the Canopy of Love again!
i'm at ep 7 now, can't wait to finish it.
then it would be on to Into thin air!
okay so people are starting to make plans for the holidays alr,
like taking up jobs and stuff.
maybe me and suzanne will go to temasek club to be lifeguards?
the pay's not bad, everyone else is jealous la! (:
and i hope we'd be able to play ball tmr.
we havent played this week yet, and my shou yang!
well hope everyone's fine, this week doesn't prove to be good.
camp's on 22nd nov! im so looking forward to it! its finally OUR turn!
& I'll be waiting, don't give up on me (:
damn bloody pissed.yeah i've got the message.
your daughter is a damn bloody effing bitch who works so hard but just cannot make it, which in short, is stupid. how can one ever be so insensitive to care only about a few pathetic numbers and not even caring about how a person could have actually felt. for the morning i was so worried, not even sure whether i could even make it to sec four because of english, and you're here telling me passing my chinese is not enough? its not enough, so? what you're expecting is way up there, far enough till its out of sight. its damn bloody effing hurtful to know that you're struggling so hard and you're just concerned about the marks. you dont even know how much hard work and effort i've put in. you dont even care how much sweat and tears have been lost to keep up with the struggle. yeah, everyone else in red badge can do it so well, why cant i? its because im just plain stupid what, thats why im struggling. you dont even have to rub it in. you're not the only one who is disappointed, i am too. and its evident that i suck, inside out. i finally calmed down to stop thinking about all the stupid effed up stuff that making me feel so miserable, and you just had to demoralise me, all over again. sometimes i wonder, am i really working hard for myself or am i just working hard for you? everyone's telling me, work harder. easy to say, hard to do. im already working very hard, if you really want to compare with last year. its a total contrast i wonder how i survived being such a pathetic loser last year. actually theres no difference, im still the pathetic loser i was last year, and i know that. so just shut up with your expectations and critisism, i still have many other emotions defeating me. im trying hard, im really trying very hard. just pray hard for me that i dont lose control and suddenly want to go and bang my head against the wall, and i mean it. ive cried enough, im sick and tired of this.
It's just too little too late
A little too wrong
And I can't wait
But you know all the right things to say
You know it's just a little too late
had a long long day yest.
first was vivo, then was bugis, then junction 8.
and me and nat sure had alot of fun, especially missing our train stops and heading towards the wrong directions..
vivo was fun! turned out better than i expected it to be (:
we didnt manage to finish looking around at all the shops that were alr opened, which made up about half of the whole place..
goes to show that its actually quite big.
yup, many places had offers and we got earrings, that i really love alot!
and then we had cheesecake and butter croissant for one buck.
oh and there were many, funny places.. like out of nowhere got one mini playarea for kids
and there was this huge "lake" thing at the top level i was so amused cos it was like knee deep and they put a sign there saying: no lifeguard on duty
uhhuh and after that we went bugis in search for my new pair of slippers, and sarah's present
in the end we were at bugis junction looking for earrings at the pushcarts!
i found my mu ma earrings! and i so love them okay, its the first in so many pairs that are nice.
yeah and then suddenly my stomach was like squeezing and letting go was damn pain and so we were desperately trying to look for a toilet.
lol, bugis just doesnt clique with me. i get all sorts of stuff there like stomach aches and giddy spells la.
oh and i met many many people at bugis, namely jiana and her friend, estbra and cordelia, jiahui matilda and natlow.
our next destination was junction 8, and i bet we were only there for like 15 mins, cos i was rushing and then was also trying hard to scour the area for a suitable present that pleases me for my dearest, sarah sim.
oh and on the way back on the bus i met vinnie kwek chwee lin!
and then we started to talk about our day and i realised that she was out with sarah.
LOL, okay sarah's telling me that people think that im her maid on her tagboard cos i tag as fatimah. hey! im a greek goddess okay! my foot la, i think fatimah's a character in the hist book.
sorry but i dont take hist.
newton and i were playing bejewelled, 19 games of solitaire showdown and 5 of 7 hand poker until 10mins ago when she told me that she hasnt bathed.
and fyi, its 1.48am now.
lol okay im quite high now, not sure why also.
i dont intend to sleep today if i can make it.
im quite looking forward to floorball, and im happy i stopped some people from ponning games carnival tmr! i hope cinch makes her appearance..
and later on in the afternoon it would be a mad rush, again.
- but don't you know that the memories are also the ones that are eating me up inside
There will come a day
When all of this is my in past
And there will come a day
When you're out of my head at last
I'm trying not to fall
Damn it's such a long way down
But here I am
im going to vivo city tmr, or rather, later.
and realising that you're going to bump into people there kinda sucks.
cinch is going to sentosa, bing is going to vivo..
so i can expect to see them there.
oh and i desperately need to get new slippers,
my slippers literally slip me.
haha i realise everytime when i blog at this time i type in short sentences.
which kinda reminds me of writer's technique.
okay so there's school on thurs and they have this games carnival thing,
which i suppose many people will pon.
and bing just told me that joy said: "i think the most united thing our class can do is all pon together.", which states very clearly why i thought so.
and on friday :/ i hope its not the papers yet, let me enjoy another weekend first lah huh..
apple core? never more. who? me!
DONALD APPLECORE :D
"You know I'll never leave you,
You can find me, everywhere
In the morning light, the evening star,
I'm always there."
i don't feel the joy one's supposed to feel when the exams are, finally over.
maybe its because i take very long to adjust myself to a new environment/lifestyle,
it's like gonna be the old way of living.
sometimes i wonder if that's good or bad.
suddenly i dont look forward to cca, when i was so reluctant for it to stand down.
yesterday was worrying about amaths,
or looking forward to the end of it .
usually i'd be like damn elated, i wonder what's wrong this time round.
man, i think that i'm still quite lost, like thinking what subject is there to study for tmr.
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or maybe its cos im giving myself more time to think.
now i can really have the time to myself to actually spend the whole day thinking.
okay, what a crappy post.
not my high time now, its alr 2.56am, but then again it has been ages since i have stayed up til so late. well because i dont see how mugging late into the night benefits me. so yeah.
anyway, went bugis today with sarah looking for a top.
and met bra and natong on the way so we went together.
end of story, good night (:
For a moment life is cool
I'm a splash in the world's biggest pool
This is more than my thoughts ever thought it would be
For a moment, just a moment, lucky me
i hope everything goes well today for my influencer, advisee, sheesh, cousin, hyena, gila monkey because i love her so (:
Heart don't fail me now
Courage don't desert me
Don't turn back now that we're here
yesterday was a very eventful day
had a damn weird dream which consisted of people that form a weird combi
like xiaoying xiaoqing minhui laopa and jiana?
so damn weird! haha okay main point is im having weird dreams again.
yeps, then it was off to school for elit.
and guess whos our tester!
its ballerina wong!
damn amusing and showoff lah.
he came into class and then he said: girls, the date today is 31st september.
and we all went diao -.-
what the..
and then during the test the elit teachers were going to all the classes to write down the mistakes in the passage on the board then he went to rewrite it on the other side of the blackboard with BOTH hands lah.
then when there was fifteen minutes left he went to write fifteen, ten, five and one on the board. then he cancelled fifteen.
okay lame shit.
after that we went to play ball!
after two weeks without touching the ball it was like shiok
oh i cant wait for next week!
next week is paradise, ending the exams with my fav subject.
fav subject + fav teacher = <3 + good results!
i hope.. haha! oh and then we got scolded for staying in school late.
and my face got me into trouble AGAIN.
okay the next time that happens again im so gonna flare.
yeah then after that we went to bishan park to play with candles and sparklers and ti deng long! well only weien and shee wanted to ti deng long.. haha!
then when shee told us about how when she was younger her tweety bird lantern that her mom bought for her got burnt and she was very sad, the next moment weien's lantern started burning!
lol, then we were competing to see who could throw the sparkler up into the tree and let it hang there.
and we were wishing for all kinds of stupid things like if siowyu could shut up?!
oh and we put 12 candles in one row and see who could blow them all out in one breath.
and the loser was siowyu!
okay then her forfeit was to run around at the bridge pointing to the pond and shouting that theres a mermaid in the pond.
and we were saying that we should be bilingual, she has to shout it in english and chinese.
but then being the sore loser she is, she didnt run around at the bridge lah.
yeah then i had to leave earlier so didnt go and eat with them but anyhow, had alot of fun (:
love you guys alot alot alot :D
People always say
Life is full of choices
No one ever mentions fear
Or how the world can seem so vast
On this journey, to the past
i see its presence everywhere,
how can i pretend that it never existed?
but i have come to also hate it now.
"Why is the sky blue? Why must you always ask stupid questions?" asked Vincent. "This is a game. These are the rules. I didnt make them up. See. Here. In the book." He jabbed a page with a pawn in his hand. "Pawn. P-A-W-N. Pawn. Read it yourself."
/ Rules of the Game