Thursday, November 15, 2012
After all these years of growing up, I've come to be very skeptical about friendship. It's to the extent where I don't see a point in putting in effort to know someone whom I've just met; not bothering to start conversations, to think of common topics to talk about, making small talk etc.
However, even among the group of friends I keep close to my heart, I often question myself, to what extent are these people willing to sacrifice for me, the same way I do for them? Time and time again I've been disappointed. Asked myself yet again: Is it worth it? I've been taken for granted for one too many times. And I'm losing faith.
It's been awhile since I've felt this way.. Each time making compromises, swallowing whatever grievances that come my way. Seriously, sometimes people are so uptight about certain things that ought to be negligible among good friends. If I can cast aside my own inconvenience and selfishness and be a lot more sensitive and a lot less unreasonable for someone I claim to be my good friend, I don't see why this friend can't do the same for me. Then again, maybe the problem lies with me.
Had a really bad day today, maybe that's what triggered me to pen my thoughts here. Tomorrow will be a better day, I hope.